berdenyut

aku kuatkan ati jugak lepas seminggu cuti dari solat ni.  aku nak solat cam biasa balik starting zuhur tadi.  punyalah sakit bila duduk antara dua sujud tu ya allahhhh...  lepas solat tu, mmg berdenyut2 lah penangan sakit lututku ituuu..

semenjak dua menjak aku sakit lutut ni, aku mmg dok kat kusi je solat sbb tak tahan sakitnya kalu terlipat.. OMG.. hanya yg pernah mengalami saja yg akan paham.  nampaknya malam ni back to the kusi la kena buat. 

berdiri dua kakipun tak sama perasaan macam dulu

ntah sampai bila aku akan sakit begini.  gympun aku dah "suspended" kan dulu sebulan.  agak2 by that time dah elok ker?
kadang2 rasa cam dah baik, kadang2 sakitnya walau dok diam2 pun terasa nyut nyutnya.. sabar ye.. allah menduga aku ni.. sabar bebanyak!

baringpun sakit esp. malam nak tido



over tau

last week kan, akak excited sgt nak pi buat passport.  apa?  ni sebab nak pi USS singapore bulan may nanti tu sebab terpaksa buat pasport, kalu tak.. harus ke matipun akak takde kisah nak buat passport nyah.. heheh.. well.. dah office kata kena buat, akak layankan jelah.. mana la tau pas ni panjang pulak langkah akak pi overseas.. ahak.. kanda plak kata we'll do our family trip every end of the year and dia kata budget dia akan naik for holiday sbb ofice dia nak revise lagi mende tu.. awww.. akak suka sgt!! 

tak kiralah pi mana pun pasni.. yg penting dapat jenjalan with my macho hubby and the boys.. akak syukurrrr sgt.. alhamdulillahhh... eh.. belum pegi lagi, awat aku kekwatt?

kami pi pudu central sabtu pagi, before 8 dah sampai situ.  start dah beratur panjang kau.. tiba2 akak2 kat situ mai keluar dari opis dia kata sistem dia down.  akak called semalamnyapun mmg diorang kata dah down, tapi tak sangka esok hari tu pun down lagi.  kecewa.  kanda dah pi opis jpn sebelah tu, amik no. nak buat IC baru.  so, akak joined jer dia.  sedey jugak.  ntah bila la nak ok, kena called them first before u can come again.  so, akak decided esok nak mai lagi after calling.  

esoknya akak pi lagi situ sebab kanda nak amik ic dia yg dah siap, and when i called earlier, they said i shd go to UTC sentul perdana gitu.. the system was good there.. so we went.  hulamakkk berapa punya panjang line, takperlah akak join que till like 40 min, thennnnn... they told us system down jugakkkkk.. what the fruittt??  geram giler, terus akak ajak kanda balik je... lantaklah.  so, the point of the story.. to get away from yr country is not that easy, ok?

apabila tiba masanya

kalu kita pergi lepas menunaikan solat dalam masjid, bukankah baiknya.. kalu di tempat2 lain, how?

mati adalah pasti.. hidup, in syaa allah..

kira coins cukupkah?

korang pernah tak sampai kena kira2 coins bila time korang nak pi lunch nak beli makanan?

oh so bad, kan?
ntah cukup ke tidak nak beli lauk 3 bijik fishball kat kedai paling best tapi nak harga paling murah.. pastu komplen, eh, yesterday rege dia lesser, why today it is different.. oh so berkira you.  kesian.  tapi katanya laki bagi berbelas ribu buat belanja.. porahh

kita ni kena sedar diri.  kalu kita tak mampu, baiklah kita makan ikut kemampuan kita.  i mean berbelanjalah ikut kemampuan.  lantaklah org yg mampu tu nak makan cemana.. sebab duit dorang, kan.  kalu rasa semua tu terlalu mahai, why not buy from pasar borong beli borong ok, so that u dont feel it is sooo burdensome bila beli mahai.  pastu masaklah.. bawaklah bekai, makanlah berapa byk yg ko suka tanpa perlu rasa oh so not worth my coins semua.  jangan pulak tak makan sebab mikirkan ko takde wang, ko berlapar jer pastu tak tahan, pengsan pulak kat opis.. oh so kesian lagiii..

meh kita share sikit what my mom said to me.. oh kak su.. since i live back with my mom.. almost everything i said will be coming from my mom tau.. oh so good mak, i can share here.. your wisdom mak.. some people just dont realize their mother is sooo precious that they do not need to respect her pun.. jerit2 je kat mak dia.. telling her as if she's a servant.. oh so kesiannn org tua tu.  i think semua ugama pun mau kita berbuat baik especially to our parents, kan?   so, kita yg islam ni.. berbuat baiklah sentiasa dgn mereka ye?

eh, jauh melalut.  nak citer pasal mak aku menasihatkan aku pasal keje mulanya tadi.  oh yes. aku bitau mak aku cemana aku keje dari dulu sampai sekarang.. we share stories.  i told her i am no longer serving my previous dept but was given my current job which is doing bla bla bla.  she said, it's okay.. mak kata tak apa keje cemanapun.  yg penting aku kena ingat niat aku keje tu ikhlas sebagai ibadah kerana Allah.  sebab apa2 pun niat kena dibetulkan.  ye la.. most of the  times kita ni nak kena diperingatkan.  even tentang niat kitapun kena betul... sebab tu la mula2 nak dapat pahalanya pun, kan?  sentiasa je beringat kata mak aku.. rezeki tu dtg dari Allah.  walau cemana kita cuba nak dapatkan rezeki yg bykk pun, kalu bukan Allah yg tentukan tuk kita, tak sampai le ke kita... melencong nanti ke tempat lain.. betul tak?  so, kalu kita nak keje beria2, nak buat keje "hardworking" katanya.. nak please boss, sebab nak mintak boss bagi kita bonus yg banyak2.. cemana tu? buat keje sgt beria2 bila boss ada, tapi ala2 je bila boss takde, dgn harapan boss nampak kita bekerja dgn sedaya upaya dgn rajinnya.  supaya berbaloi boss nak bagi kita bonus 6bulan setengah.. cemana?  buatnya time dapat bonus ko harap 6bulan tiba2 ko dapat 1bulan, ko nak salahkan sapa?  dahlah dah tau sangat majikan ko tu takde dalam sejarah nak membagi 6bulan bonus der.. berangan je la..  so not true kalu ada yg kata dia dapat begitu ok? lagi2 support staff cam ko tu.. hmmm.. kesian lagi.  tentu ko kecewa kan?  masa tu ko nak buat keje cemana plak knowing u will not get any better sbb ko dah bagi the best alreadypun dapat gitu2 jer, how?

sebagai muslim, betulkah cara bekerja tu?  sebaiknya kita balik pada fitrah kenapa kita bekerja in the first place ok? 

lift you higher with this motivational words

hamba Allah bukan hamba abdi

last week friday my office was organising this gig for the international women's day.  i was there simply because i had so nothing to do (at times really, i will feel really bored not having any work to do).. so, i went to the show at 15 floor of my office.  i signed up on the spot and were given a "stop modern day slavery - freedom" badge.  if i were to sign up early, i would be given a t-shirt cut & made into a bag.. mm.. not so me... hehe.. i was happy i decided to join the gig and the talk show they have which they talked about human trafficking and slavery.  the show by kenny tan of the dulu2 kenny, remy martin was so entertaining youu.. terharuuu akakkkk.  even kenny told us his story about his filipino maid.

who would have thot that nowadays slavery is still practised.  even in malaysia, ok?  it is hidden under the  title workers - domestic workers, factory workers and also sex workers.  it has opened my eyes how so many bad people who could profit from all these. 

IF the victim is powerless to escape through the perpetrator's use of force, fraud or coercion to provide services in the form of labour or sex for another this is called human trafficking!!  some victims encounter force labor or debt bondage at the hands of their employers, employment agents or informal labor recruiters.  surprisingly, the malaysian government statictics shows that, on average, it rescues about 2 victims every day.  how about the rest?

if money is more important than a person's liberty, than it becomes slavery.  we were told of a story where a maid was poured with hot water every time she made a mistake while doing her task.  she was raped also by the male employer (oh so geram hearing this kind of stories)  making it more horrible, what was the female employer doing when she was raped? 

another story is when, a person kept his maid from getting her salary and not letting the maid from calling or checking on her loved ones at home.. not giving a holiday to the maid (i believe everybody shd be given a time off, kan).. not letting the maid practice her religion, not letting the maid mixed around with others (her friends or relatives) .. these are all slavery.  but we usually dont notice this because it happens in a private house.  tau2 sudah kena tangkap saja sbb the maid tak tahan and tried to jump from a building ke apa ke kan... oh what has happened to humanity?

one more thing, this happens quite some times already, there were these college girls.. saying they fall in love with their boyfriends from the same college (foreigners usually pakis or african countries) who is sooooooo romantic and sooo can do anything for love, and the girls dont care what their parents say anymore because they were blinded by love.. please be careful all parents out there.. your doter might be taken overseas and sold as prostitutes.. ya Allahhh.. it happened, already so many girls.. leaving their home and finding themselves to be sex workers overseas!!!

these are all community problems.  what can we do to help?
will tell you later!

Being right all the time

hai gang.. cewah.. bila ko kawen ek?  aku dah almost 18 taun kawen tau..uih.. berumahtangga gitu.  korang yg dah berumahtangga, or baru jer berumahtangga tentu ada or paling tidakpun sikit mengalami masalah.  tak byk sikit pasti ada ketegangan.. eh ketegangan lain la, bukan yg itu.. hahaha.. tak hengat ayat yg kugunakan.. paham kan? 

tengah marah2 or hangin2 or bencik2 tu terserlahlah warna sebenar pasangan anda, kan? adakah dia seorang yg penyabar or adakah dia akan menyembur or meletop kebabom geram bila marah and tak puas hati or apa2 tak kena..

saja la buat topik ni, lama tak citer pasal rumahtangga... oit, tak baik citer hal umahtangga kat org tau.. halooo.. sapa kata ni citer umah tangga aku? this is in general dol.  kadang2 masalah kecik kat org lelaki sebenarnya masalah rumit kat bini dia.. tu la yg nak kena ada persefahaman.  letak le ke tepi perasaan yg ko tu ketua kuarga sebagai suami yg berkuasa, but kenalah sama2 amik inisiatif cubalah selesaikan masalah or ketegangan tu. 

gaduh laki bini korang penah tak? tak pernah?  tipu laa.. org bercinta pun gaduh, ini kan pulak lakibini.. tak cayer korang tak gaduh.. tak best la gitu.. sebab.. kalu dah gaduh, dah baik pulak lepas tu... korang akan rasa hubungan tu lebih kamcing dari sebelum tu tau.. haaa.

apa lagi?  eh.. satu lagi.. kalu nak marah isteri or laki anda, jgn la buat di depan anak2, sgt tak sesuai.. macam bagi anak2 tengok sapa lebih berkuasa.. mmg tak baik, kan?